Diána Groó

Maďarsko

Diána Groó

režie, scenář, producent

Regina Jonas

Můj první celovečerní film měl premiéru na festivalu židovských filmů v Amsterodamu, úvodní slovo pronesla rabínka Eliza Klapechek. Později za mnou přišla a ptala se, zda bych nechtěla natočit film o první ženské rabínce. Nepřišlo mi to zajímavé. Utkvělo mi jen jméno Regina Jonas a neměla jsem ani ponětí, kde a kdy žila. O mnoho let později jsem ze zvědavosti začala hledat, kdo to vlastně byl. Zjistila jsem, že žila v Německu ve 30. letech a jejím největším snem bylo stát se rabínkou. Věděla to už odmala. Ale podle pravidel židovské víry se ženy nemohly stát rabínkami.

Dear Helen - I'm already them

I am the only member from my family who is able to travel with my Holocaust survivor grandmother from Budapest to the yearly Generation Forums in Ravensbrück former Concentration Camp. We stay there at houses, which used to serve as female SS guards’ accommodation. Artists come to perform, young people listen to survivors, we remember, days are devoted to memories. Although I am there to support my grandmother, it seems she is much stronger than me. But how do I deal with this location, spending summers in a death camp? How can I balance my feelings in between hate for this place and overcoming the unbearable memories of my grandmother’s past that all became part of mine?

I grew up with the knowledge of a horrible trauma that happened to my family 80 years ago. Almost everyone perished of my family in concentrations camps. One of the only survivors is my grandma. I know every single detail. She is 97 years old. We have a very special bond between us since my childhood. I follow her everywhere she goes even if it is painful for me. I hoped our last visit together at the Holocaust Memorial event in 2021 of Rechlin KZ would end to my painful journeys and let me live in the present, but I ended up with a different conclusion.

"Dear Helen" is a film-letter, an experimental docu-diary, dedicated to my great-grandmother Helen, who perished in Rechlin KZ, in the arms of my grandma.